I’ve never had writers’ block so heavy before. It’s like I want to write; I see the pictures, hear the voices. I can picture everything in the room during the conversation, But when I have to put the pen to the paper I’m stuck. I can’t get the psyche that’s talking in my head to talk when I want it to. I’ve lost it.
I don’t even know if this is what writers’ block really feels like. I read somewhere once that a writer is someone to whom writing is more difficult than it is to others. Maybe that’s true. I don’t know. What scares me is that I feel like i’ve lost something vital. It doesn’t feel like I’m alive. It just feels like I’m hooked to a life support machine, it’s just keeping my heart beating and my lungs breathing.
So many things have happened in the past two months. I sat for my O levels, don’t know how things are going to turn out. I’m hoping for the best. In the middle of it all, I feel as if I should think about what I want to study in college and look for good colleges that can give me those courses. I can’t bring myself to, because I was fixated on the chance I would get once the exams were over. I was sure I would get a HUGE break, during which I would write tons, watch tons of anime (or at least snippets), read tons of books and manga. A teacher from chool called today and told us that A Level classes started from the 27th of July. The exams just ended last week.
I honestly have no idea what purpose this post serves. Except that of a rambling point. And a shoutout to my brother. DO NOT come and read stuff while I’m still writing. Just don’t. Ever heard of non productiveness due to company?